No need to get into all the dirty details but I just wanted to mention how nice it was to go home the other night. He was waiting for me at the door and the moment he put his arms around me, I felt two weeks worth of stress and anxiety just melt away. We have never had to deal with something like this before in our relationship. That sounds so ridiculous and weird (especially around these parts, lmao) but it's true. All my relationships in the past had bumps all the time that it just became routine to fight and make up. But with us, it was so devastating because it was new and it never happens. Things still aren't perfectly right, but we're working on it. The thought of ever losing him terrifies me. I've never felt that way about anyone before. I've had my heart broken, of course, but I've never gone into a deep, deep depression like that. I am such a wimp. :(

And now that I've gotten all comfortable in New York, it seems I will be leaving again. I've signed up to be in a horror movie and the filming starts soon. Where, you ask? Germany! Holy crap, I am so excited! I feel sexier already just thinking about it. Well, minus the hacking and gagging they do over there every now and then. But still, GERMANY.