You know that face you put up so that everyone thinks you're alright? I am really good at that face. I think you are too. Who are we kidding? It hasn't been the way it used to for months. I have felt so disconnected from you. I've tried to push things aside and not deal with it, but I don't know if I can anymore. We blame everything on our busy schedules, but if we really loved each other and wanted this to work, we'd make time. I don't feel like you want to make time for me, and I'm too exhausted to fight anymore to make time for you. So, what happens now? I bet you won't even respond to this for months. And that will be my answer.

I don't know if Rachael is still with me, but if she isn't, I am going to take a vacation and spend some time with her. I feel a lot closer to her than I do to anyone right now, and I think it would be good for me. I read that she is looking for a place to move into, maybe I should look with her. Maybe I will proposition that we move in together and be roommates after this film is over. I wonder what she will say.